Since our family fun day outing last week, I have been in thought and in feeling. This little family needs more fun days, we need our Daddy more, I need my love more we just need him more.
Cohen is his daddy's boy through and through, don't get me wrong he is his mummy's boy too but I struggle to get a look in when the afternoons and weekends roll around when hubby is home. Cohen had so much fun having a random day of fun and daddy time on Thursday. He was riding high with excitement and stories only to have hubby go off to track marshall at the GC 600 the next day.
Cohen spent much of the weekend asking for and searching out extra cuddles and kisses and then he would have those moments when I knew something wasn't right. I'd ask him what was wrong and with a slight whimper in the voice each time I heard - I miss my daddy.
Yesterday afternoon when hubby arrived at his parents place (we planned to meet there and have a family dinner with them), I could tell hubby was visibly stressed. He was involved in a major incident on his point during the race. Several reports, questionings and briefings had him having a gut full of it all after three 12 plus hour days on track. All whilst he knew his little boy was missing him and wanting him home soon.....or like Cohen kept putting it - daddy home two minutes, bless him.
Speaking further with hubby today about Cohen and our family fun day and the lack of time he has off from work, I felt free to speak more openly about how I feel about all this too. I told him that I know he runs a business with his father but it sucks that he just never manages to have blocks of holiday time with us as all as a family. He knows and feels it too, the stress and the pull of needing to work and wanting to be here with us. It sucks that the week I was home from hospital when Sarah was born, he was meant to have off. But because of staff problems I was left recovering from a c-section, trying to breastfeed and run after a not quite two year old at that point.
Daddy with the kids when Sarah was a week old.
Furthermore to his excessive work/business commitments Sarah isn't confident for long periods with anyone but me, so my downtime is near non-existent. I do get a Sunday morning break for all if 40 mins at our local coffee shop. I'm up gone and back by 7.30am at the latest.
In all honest how does everyone else do it, how do you balance these issues? How much family time do you really get together? Do you really have any proper downtime for yourself?